I’m lying on my stomach on my bed. I hear a voice through the door ask the question: “Where’s mom?”
I sigh and throw my head down on the comforter. I came in here not three minutes ago for a short little reprieve from the chaos.
It has been a day of constant bickering, blatant lies, and disrespect. It has been a day of repeating myself over and over, fighting my own sinful desire to raise my voice and prove I’m the boss.
Earlier today I leaned over the washing machine and as the load of towels spun itself dry, I prayed for my children and for myself. That God would give me wisdom, and that He would continue to draw my children’s hearts toward Him.
I love being a mom, but some days are just absolutely exhausting. They are physically exhausting, yes. But more than that, it’s the emotional toll.
What do my kids’ actions and attitudes say about my parenting?
That’s the constant question that rings in my ears. And while I know my children will make their own decisions in life and that I don’t have any control over that, the question stills hangs in the air.
Today is a hard day. And yet, amidst all the hard things, I can still remember the moments of grace sprinkled in.
God woke me up this morning and gave me the energy to pursue the day.
He gave me His Word to fill my soul and sustain me on even the hardest days.
I spotted my youngest singing to herself on the back porch at daybreak.
One of my children completed her chores without complaining.
I was able to run errands on my own and enjoy the feel of the wind through my open windows.
My husband was home to share a walk with me this afternoon.
We have had food on the table at every meal today and plenty to share.
Today – right now – I am choosing to do as the old song says and count my blessings, name them one by one. Perhaps someone reading this also needs to refocus their mind on Christ and count their blessings too.
If you’re having a hard day – or if you’re living through a hard season – please know that it is always my honor to pray for you. Your requests are safe with me and it is my joy to partner with you in prayer.
As I write this post I am praying over each person who will read it. I pray that you will be reminded of the goodness of the Lord in your life, and that you will continue to look to Him on your good days and your hard days.
He loves you deeply. Don’t forget His great love for you, friend. ❤️